What is that you desire?

Fulfillment beyond what’s necessary.

Or the necessity to fulfill?

Over the course of the 18 years in my life. I have made many decisions.. decisions that lead to another mind-blowing decision etc.. What is this butterfly effect? What is the purpose to seek for the core? Or does one need a reset button, in order to fulfill the necessary?

I have met many people, ok maybe not that many. But many people online. People from different walks of life, different cultures, environments, countries, personalities, characters etc. From each, I begin to understand the other even better.Each experience seemed even better than the one before.

I have changed over this span of time. The ever changing attributes to be added or removed. From a mischevious young boy, fighting the arcs of puberty, maturing (still) to a fine person. Each person I met, left either a experience to discard, or one to embrace to.

I have never regretted the decisions I have made. What is there to regret? For one cannot turn back time, and replay like loading a saved game. Yet, enjoy each process and accept the result. Life is a period of animate existance, just that of a unpainted canvas/unsketched art. How would you paint it? How would you sketch it?

So, what is that you desire?

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Materialism

There was one main reason I stayed on using the computer, instead of getting interested in other stuff as books (I do read them), fashion items etc.

It was to avoid the ‘materialistic’ trap. That very one trap that leeches that honey-loving cold hard cash slotted neatly in your wallet, one that could cause millions into debt (okay, exaggeration), one that burns a very deep hole into your pocket.

By staying on the computer, I could retrieve and gather information at almost the cost of nothing. I buried myself deeper into the net of information. I then pondered at the question, was I escaping from that trap, or have I been in it and yet not realized?

I do have materialistic needs, probably not as much/little as some others, but I know it’s there. That desire to purchase something of high quality. Who wants lousy, cheap quality things? 

I was given a hand-it-down camera. A Canon IXUS v3. It served me loyalty for a term of 10 months since I received it. I love taking photos. It’s like a frame of experience from what I see, saved in digital form to allow others to view. I knew it would died out soon, and on the 10th month, it started giving out signs of old age. I couldn’t do much, except to allow it’s slow death to occur.

Now I’m screwed, as without a camera, I feel like a piece of my life is missing. I can’t take photos of what I think would be a nice photo. An important communication channel to my audience has been taken away. I felt my existance fading away. So many opportunties, yet sadly wasted.

Now as I save up for my needs, it’s a long and hard journey, but it has to be done.

So, have I become materialistic?

Little Busters! Game Merchandise Review

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I did promise to do a merchandise review on Little Busters! and here it is! It won’t be a comprehensive review but just one that basically covers what is included in the package and all.

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